Tuesday, April 7, 2009


The greatest fear I've ever experienced in my 22 years is the realization that I'm scared of hope.

It's the most bipolar emotion.

In a single moment, you can go from gazing into a glowing-golden horizon to wallowing in the darkest night of your lifetime.

Still, I won't let the possibility of a dark future shadow my ability to hope, and I won't let the fear of change hold me.

Most importantly, I'll be careful with how I use it, and I'll choose my battles differently.

No more silly hope for cake and ice cream.

But hope for redemption...now that's something worth the fear.

No, I won't let go of that despite the greatest terror.


  1. I'm trying to be bigger in my hopes, hoping less for the mundane and trivial and even praying for the more important things.

    Does prayer scare you sometimes too?

  2. I would just like to say,that
    Keep hoping against hope!!!

  3. way to say what everyone is thinking in a very poetic way! i like it jakey!

  4. Wow, I know what you mean.
    I'm one of the most pathetically hopeful people, yet I tend to be quite cynical because I'm so fearful of that hope.

  5. But... hope gives you the strength to keep fighting something. :S
    I love the way you wrote this... but I just guess I strongly disagree.
    I can't find myself scared of an emotion that gives you so much support. But that's just my view.